When I was five years old, if you asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would have told you that I was going to be "a dancer."
If you had asked me the same question two weeks ago, I would still tell you..."a dancer."
Some of my far-fetched dreams have come and gone. But I always knew I was made for one thing. I was made to dance. So...maybe I wasn't supposed to be "the candyman" or "the firefighter"...But I knew deep down inside that I was made for this.
July 18th, 2010- I set off to taste a little bit of the burning passion that had been growing in me for all these years. I went to dance with The Storling dance Theatre in Olathe, Kansas for two long weeks! It was completely amazing! I enjoyed the pressure, blood, sweat, tears, and even the long grueling hours I danced everyday, but there was still something missing; something I didn't understand. Don't get me wrong, I was dancing for a Christian company. These people love God- with their whole hearts, but that still didn't provide satisfaction for me. There was something that had to be resolved in my own heart. Why was I there? Sure, it felt good to know that I was working hard for something that I loved to do, but was that enough? Not for me. When the curtain closes at the end of the performance, the only thing I'd be left with is a faded applause ringing in my ears, and rose petals that would soon wilt. I was made for something more than this.
The last day I danced with Storling, I ended up taking a lyrical class. It was the last day of the Intensive, the last class of the day, and my last class with this wonderful company and I was about to learn more than I had ever learned before. I was going to give it everything I had no matter how tired I was. That's where God showed up.
Sure enough, I danced hard, just like I knew I would! But this time God moved through me. I danced to the song, "Everything" by Lifehouse that afternoon and God truly became everything through my movement. I've leanred that He is so much more than the faded appluase at the end of a show, and more than hundreds of wilty rose petals that are given to show support. He is my dream.
So..if you were to ask this little girl with a big dream what I wanted to be TODAY...I'd have to say, "a dancer... and soooo much more."
